angriness

how does it feel to be half a man again? Feels like a blue stick in the wind on concrete. Says my name over and over but theres no response. I can be here, I just cant think like this. I mean if she was here and there was joy, what still would there be. What it is what it is. Got some required reading to do. Feel like theres some things to forget for a while. forget that you had a chance to do good things. forget that there was too much time spent on the evening. Hater for the ages. the logic swap of a while ago yielded some coincidental benefit. There were spatio temporal changes in the way I see two eyes worth of the world. Im charged up now. High on nicotine cessation each evening. Then get back into buts for two days. then back. Insano modulo. Girl said she puked just to have the control. I sell control in a bottle. Prices are rising. Small cartell for your to seethe about. Production induction innervation. Spelled how and for what. A thought was that like mom I can think about my deary not ever writing me back in terms of the good things. She said just think about the good times before she stopped.

There is a possibility that it would help to say no to missing her daily. Could say no. Like you have control ishtard. Wheres your bar set. How big is it. Its this big. Its like that. Its like what if I was to be painting rooms in Gaithersburg. Paint another room. No I dont do taxes. Lost my point that was this. If you feel like your lonely and you want to find a woman, consider how many there are out there. There are many. ok so now consider how you might go about finding the best one. First thing up is not getting too heavy anywhere. But I want needy wanton needy how. Sure you do and does everybody else. Doesnt matter if your clean in the thought process that says Im getting myself ready for big game here and I certainly wont be inclined to do so if I give up now and get a little hunt on. Besides which I have figures to dry lab. That means fabricate. But I mean in the good way, like model drawing. Draw me a model and I still see her in it, bundle of joy. Its more like a glow even. I should think this is not what it feels like when you lose something you must have. What if some people musnt have anything. Could be.

Whats separating me from the mof that I was thinking like few years back is distraction by randoms. I was all in before and given the opportunity it looks like Ive gotten started on getting back.